Why I am Writing This Blog

Well let's be completely honest here first.

Narcissism

Complete unadulterated narcissism in concentrated form

Because I like me, in all my Tegan and Sara listening, androdgyny loving, my little pony watching, skinny jeans wearing, queer glory. So obviously you should like me too.

(Seriously. Drool.)

This blog is good way to fuel my narcissism by letting me journal things out. It not only strokes my ego having other people see it, but it also helps me consolidate my own thoughts, and allows me to look back and see that I've made progress, whether that progress is in terms of transition, personal or emotional progress, or even just developing my writing style.

Coming in a close second however is a reason that's a bit more altruistic though.

There isn't as much information about transitioning and transgender issues in general as there could be. I've been looking through so many resources, since I first realized I am trans* and a lot of the information that is online is outdated, geared towards different audiences than myself, blatantly trans-phobic, sexist, or reinforces a gender binary.

I am not an expert on transgender issues. But I think that given my background I can, at the very least, provide a semi-unique perspective, and add to that relatively small pool of relevant, positive information.

But probably more importantly. I am just starting my transition.

That gives me also gives me a relatively unique perspective, and something to write about that might help other trans people who are in my position now.

But my biggest long term hope for this blog (This will sound really cheesy) is this. I want trans* people just beginning their own transitions to be able to look at my blog and feel hopeful.

Times like while I still at the military school, after I had just gotten kicked out of my parents house, and all the other times that I've just felt really shitty due to dysphoria or other bad conditions I looked at a small library of transition pictures and videos I have saved on my computer and they gave me the feeling that where I'm at is temporary, and that things can better and being comfortable with myself is possible.

That's a feeling that can save a life.

And that's what I want for my blog. I am not a special snowflake. I do not have magic gender powers that will solve all my problems with dysphoria and gender-related depression. If I can transition, be as incredibly queer as I am, survive all the slurs and names, and get through the all really shitty parts and be able to come out of it all (where ever along the gender spectrum out of it all is for me, and the same relates to you) with a positive outlook on life, then there is no reason that you can't too.